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ZANE . house venture ([personal profile] godsays) wrote2013-07-22 11:08 am

15th metal . private messages

[ Private to Chris ]

Do I have to kill him?

[ Guess who just woke up and saw the kerfuffle. Zero to rage in thirty-one seconds. ]

[ Private to Cassel ]

Are you well enough to make metals? Because if so, I'm going to ask for pewter, iron and steel.

If not...

[ He doesn't finish that. ]
patheticvillain: (ʭ baby you don't have to)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-22 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't get a response for too long, bites down on his wrist to stop the tears, but when Zane just shows up and holds him like he's read his mind, Cassel breaks down entirely. Everything's shattering, every single defense is down; he clings to Zane by his sleeve and his shirtfront and sobs like he's still being beaten, like one finger after another is shattering under pointed pressure.]

[He's pathetic. He is. But he can't care about that right now. His brother's back. Here. With him.]
patheticvillain: (ʭ i live my life in bitterness)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-22 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't mind - he needs this, isn't sure when it became something he needed, but it is now. Why can't Zane see that this is what helps - that so often, this is the only thing that helps?]

Like this. [He speaks, muffled and teary, into Zane's shirt.] This is how you love me.
patheticvillain: (ʭ still so young & anxious to be free)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-22 09:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I know.

[He believes. He trusts. Zane listened. He'd thought he wasn't listening, but here he is.]

[In the end, he manages to calm down. This is what he needed, he thinks, to be able to break down safely. To let go for a few minutes. To feel all of it, and then be drained.]

[His hands loosen in Zane's shirt.]
patheticvillain: (ʭ we'll get a brand new start)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
[He takes his cues from Zane, leans his head on his shoulder, wipes his eyes.]

It's okay. You're here now.
patheticvillain: (ʭ that the hand you hold)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. For listening to me.

[A few more heartbeats of quiet.]

I love you.
patheticvillain: (ʭ step up; step up; step up)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks.

I just don't want to have to fall apart anymore.
patheticvillain: (ʭ lost all that you could)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[He opens his mouth to answer, thinking it's another question, any other question.]

[Then he closes it, lips tight.]
patheticvillain: (ʭ it's a scene about me)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

[Almost inaudible. Pleading. Don't.]
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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 08:48 pm (UTC)(link)
No, he's not. He'll be back.

[He's clinging to this certainty fiercely. If he lets go, he has to let go of everything.]
patheticvillain: (ʭ all these memories)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
He will. He's just being too much like me right now.
patheticvillain: (ʭ lord of the flies)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-23 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[He laughs. It's not actually that funny.]

He's being the part of me that - pities himself. And I don't like that part very much.
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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-24 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
No. I understand it, but I don't like it.
patheticvillain: (ʭ you play all the right games)

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[personal profile] patheticvillain 2013-07-25 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
I know. I know you are, I'm sorry. This shouldn't have happened. I couldn't fight him.

But - Kon's going to help, I think. He said he'd ask the Admiral for some of my work back.

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