godsays | 36 metals ; homeward

[ private to marsh ]

Do you think your god - the new god - could use someone like me?

[ spam, cassel ]

[ He seeks Cassel out, after the conversation with Marsh, knocks at his door. Cassel is family; family is the first he's going to tell.

He won't be gone forever. Just for a little while. Just enough to get his bearings again. ]

[ spam, emperor ]

[ Lying idly in the Emperor's garden, brushing a soft leaf between his fingertips. ]

I'm going to go home.

[ This is stated somewhat tentatively. Not because he isn't mostly sure about the decision, but because he isn't sure how it will be taken. ]

[ video, locked to close cr; includes Cassel, Barbara, Iris, Bush, Chris, Anya, Charles, Morgana, Kelsier, Marsh, Vin, Emperor, possibly others I have missed, ask if confused ]

I'm going - home. To Scadrial. The planet where I was born. Years after I died, and I hear it's a little different now, but I'm going.

I'm don't think I'm ready for this - being a warden - yet. That's all.

I'll be back. This is more home to me than anywhere else has been.

[ locked to mistcast ]

If there's anything you want me to find, or find out, tell me now.

[ video ; open ]

I'll be leaving, temporarily. If you have business with me, we should conclude it now.

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Yes. [ Very. Very. ]

Do you think he'll... [ There are quiet undertones of the neglected child, here. Of the young man who still doesn't quite understand. ] Help me? [ Like me. Take me in. Give him somewhere to focus and to learn. If he doesn't learn, the pain of leaving the Barge will be for nothing. ]

He'll welcome you.

[Despite everything. Because of everything. In conjunction with everything. He'll love Zane, probably, in the way that he loves broken monsters: so much and so warmly that they gain a little wholeness from being in his presence.]

He'll never make you do anything you don't want to do.

[ His head drops; he's on the verge of tears, and he's not sure why, exactly. ]

I know. Marsh told me some about him.

Marsh is telling you the truth. But - then that's what he does.

[Brutal truths have always been Marsh's purview. She averts her eyes briefly, then forces herself to look back.]

Don't cry. You won't be alone there. Sazed will see you for what you are, for what you've sacrificed. For your potential.

[ That's the reason he'd cry. That, not out of fear, not out of grief. Out of being accepted. ]

I'll find Spook.

You'll spar with me before you go.

[Not a question, or a request. It will calm him down. She knows.]

[She's not good at talking and she won't touch him. This is what she can do.]

...yes.

[ Thank you. ]

Good.

[Always.]

[There is only a brief hesitation before she hangs up, quickly and with every appearance of confidence.]

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