28th metal . voice

[godsays]

The Admiral makes you a warden before you finish learning. Finding out what's right and what's wrong.

Is that because you never stop learning?

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[godsays]

Not even to him.

Not everybody is interesting all the time.

[myironeyes]

It's not news to him.

[mistconduct]

Look at you, learning

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[versusnurture]

Do you believe your mind's been violated by the process?

[patheticvillain]

This shocks and awes me.

[patheticvillain]

I am.

[huff huff]

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[indispensible]

[Vin cuts on the feed, then cuts it off after a moment's hesitation. Viscerally uncomfortable, inexplicably pleased. She hasn't said anything yet, because . . . because. But.]

[And on again.]

You asked the question because you think you know the answer already. Right?

[godsays]

In case you haven't thought it through: mocking me for being a warden also means mocking yourself.

private; voice

[godsays]

...I thought you might not want to.

[ After Zane fucked up last time. c: ]

[godsays]

Does it mean... the more you search, the more you have to keep searching?

[godsays]

But I'm brittle, too. Marked by what happened.

[private]

[themissingpiece]

No, and she won't be able to use them again. I didn't announce what I'm doing because of what she did. It's not... good. [his voice is tight] Might not work and I might end up as inmate if it goes bad.

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[godsays]

I let it be violated. I let people walk around inside.

I wanted to be saved, though.

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[godsays]

Just trying to confirm that's the answer.

[ That there isn't something wrong with him, for not being sure. For still having so much anger. ]

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[versusnurture]

I want to save myself.

I want to protect my warden, too. Is that weird?

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[onlysurvivor]

Are you kidding? Of course, I want to test new metals! I just... would have liked to known before you did.

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[indispensible]

No one knows everything.

[Not even gods.]

[private]

[godsays]

You didn't cause it, then. Maybe you should have been more careful preventing it, but I don't know her very well. I don't know how careful you were, either.

Do you want to talk about it?

[godsays]

You're asleep sometimes.

[routemistress]

...But resilient, and knowing. And stronger.

[private]

...Zane, there's someone I want you to meet and talk to, and I think it might be 'ard for you. Did you know Cass, much?

[patheticvillain]

I am fascinating when I'm asleep, how dare you.

[mistconduct]

Nuh uh.

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[godsays]

Maybe. I think what's most normal is to put your resentment on your warden. They can be a symbol of everything that's trapping you.

But I think it's better the other way.

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[godsays]

I didn't think it was going to do that.

[private]

[themissingpiece]

I warned her what would happen.

[A long pause]

...Yeah. Though I need you not tell a couple people anything I tell you.