Even if everything's your fault, which I don't think is true, at least now you know. You're here and you know and you can figure out where to go from here. It sucks and it hurts but eventually it'll suck less and hurt less, and when that happens it'll be worth it, I swear it will.
You know what the worst feels like now. You know what it's like to be totally hopeless. This is as bad as it's going to get - unless you just lie down and refuse to get up, in which case yeah, that is your fault because you're smarter and quicker and better to me than almost anybody else here. Giving up and not trying and hiding away from people hurts more than anything, I know, that's what I've been doing for like a week and a half.
There are like a billion people here who love you. I bet you've been pestered by them nonstop. Even Chris, he's gonna forgive you, he's gonna worry, he's probably worrying now, even. He doesn't stay mad. He's the most forgiving person I've ever met, way more than me, and he loves you like family just like I do.
You're the only person I've ever let touch my emotions on purpose. I trust you. You're the second person here I trusted, the first person stronger than me. I'm gonna have your back no matter what, but if you don't think you matter enough to fight for yourself, then I definitely don't.
If you give up now, all you're proving is that you're as weak as you think you are, but if you push you'll prove that you're not helpless and you're not weak and you can't be defeated, not anymore, that nothing can fuck you up badly enough to knock you down forever. Because it can't. I know. I've seen what you can do.
You could lead armies. You can survive Silent Hill. You can get me to trust you, you can sure as hell get over this.
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Even if everything's your fault, which I don't think is true, at least now you know. You're here and you know and you can figure out where to go from here. It sucks and it hurts but eventually it'll suck less and hurt less, and when that happens it'll be worth it, I swear it will.
You know what the worst feels like now. You know what it's like to be totally hopeless. This is as bad as it's going to get - unless you just lie down and refuse to get up, in which case yeah, that is your fault because you're smarter and quicker and better to me than almost anybody else here. Giving up and not trying and hiding away from people hurts more than anything, I know, that's what I've been doing for like a week and a half.
There are like a billion people here who love you. I bet you've been pestered by them nonstop. Even Chris, he's gonna forgive you, he's gonna worry, he's probably worrying now, even. He doesn't stay mad. He's the most forgiving person I've ever met, way more than me, and he loves you like family just like I do.
You're the only person I've ever let touch my emotions on purpose. I trust you. You're the second person here I trusted, the first person stronger than me. I'm gonna have your back no matter what, but if you don't think you matter enough to fight for yourself, then I definitely don't.
If you give up now, all you're proving is that you're as weak as you think you are, but if you push you'll prove that you're not helpless and you're not weak and you can't be defeated, not anymore, that nothing can fuck you up badly enough to knock you down forever. Because it can't. I know. I've seen what you can do.
You could lead armies. You can survive Silent Hill. You can get me to trust you, you can sure as hell get over this.