No. It doesn't feel good. It feels shitty.

[And he realizes abruptly that he just did to Chris what Sam did to him. Feels nauseous, goes pale, lies down a little more hoping it'll help - it doesn't.]

I fucked up. I did. I really, really, really [breath; he feels like he's drowning] really don't want to hurt you. Ever. I'm telling the truth.