[But now, on top of everything, he's upset Zane. He's so tired of pushing uphill, of things being okay and then getting so much worse. He just wants Zane here, with him, but he can't get the words right, doesn't know how to ask.]
[He was so scared, and so alone, and now he feels alone all over again. Just because he wants all of this to stop before it gets worse. He wants to lie down and give up, but he just can't do it.]
[He presses his hand to his mouth, trying to stifle the noise. Trying to keep quiet.]
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[But now, on top of everything, he's upset Zane. He's so tired of pushing uphill, of things being okay and then getting so much worse. He just wants Zane here, with him, but he can't get the words right, doesn't know how to ask.]
[He was so scared, and so alone, and now he feels alone all over again. Just because he wants all of this to stop before it gets worse. He wants to lie down and give up, but he just can't do it.]
[He presses his hand to his mouth, trying to stifle the noise. Trying to keep quiet.]