[A harsh gust of breath out. It's about what Zane has to live with, not him. But this isn't really the time or place or people for that argument.]
I know it's not about whatever I might assume you deserve. I know that. But just. I.
[Damn it all.]
Forever is not a word you actually comprehend. Risen doesn't either, come to that.
[He's old, but finite, he doesn't understand it either. But there was a terrible purity, a black timelessness to his experience in between life and death when Hannibal cut his heart out, something he doesn't know how to express to anyone else. He knows it wouldn't be forever anyway - one or the other of them would vanish - and it wouldn't be at all the same caliber of forever even if it were. And yet. And yet. For all that love is a wonder worth clinging to, the worlds are so much wider.]
[private]
I know it's not about whatever I might assume you deserve. I know that. But just. I.
[Damn it all.]
Forever is not a word you actually comprehend. Risen doesn't either, come to that.
[He's old, but finite, he doesn't understand it either. But there was a terrible purity, a black timelessness to his experience in between life and death when Hannibal cut his heart out, something he doesn't know how to express to anyone else. He knows it wouldn't be forever anyway - one or the other of them would vanish - and it wouldn't be at all the same caliber of forever even if it were. And yet. And yet. For all that love is a wonder worth clinging to, the worlds are so much wider.]