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I wanted to talk about the Barge.
[ He's in the garden again, the garden that's going to become lonely without Morgana. (Visible in the shot is a certain special, elaborate, beautiful flower that he's threatened people over before.) ]
I got here... it's been almost two years for me, though less for the people here. I graduated in five months. That time was terrifying, and painful, and wonderful. I changed so much. But I've changed more since then. It was just a step, not an ending.
I think it's hard to be a warden because what the Admiral does, sometimes, isn't fair. He takes people who have suffered and hurt and lost and makes them suffer more. He traps people who have been trapped their whole lives, and he's not concerned with anyone calling it wrong.
I know - I know inmates have almost always hurt people. I know the Barge changes us into people who don't. I think the way that happens is that it makes us not alone anymore. It shows us mirrors of ourselves. It shows us love. It hurts us and shows us that we can heal.
[ He's started to cry, tears spilling over, though his expression doesn't change. ]
I was never loved. You, all of you who were, you're so lucky. I thought that a son should love his father, and so I let him use me, and I gave him everything he expected. I killed, and I watched, and - I even tried to kill him sometimes, because he expected it, and he would have thought I was weak if I hadn't. Then, when I became too skilled, he tried to dispose of me, and when that didn't work, he tried to buy me, and I...
You don't know how lucky you are. You don't know how it changes everything when people love you.
[ He wipes tears away. ]
It's not going to be the same without Morgana.
[ spam for sylvanas ]
[ He stops by her cabin, after making the post. Just a check-in, which he does every once in a while, making sure she's all right, that she doesn't need anything. He knocks, because he never comes in without asking - at least, not until Lirath's opened the door for him. ]
[ He's in the garden again, the garden that's going to become lonely without Morgana. (Visible in the shot is a certain special, elaborate, beautiful flower that he's threatened people over before.) ]
I got here... it's been almost two years for me, though less for the people here. I graduated in five months. That time was terrifying, and painful, and wonderful. I changed so much. But I've changed more since then. It was just a step, not an ending.
I think it's hard to be a warden because what the Admiral does, sometimes, isn't fair. He takes people who have suffered and hurt and lost and makes them suffer more. He traps people who have been trapped their whole lives, and he's not concerned with anyone calling it wrong.
I know - I know inmates have almost always hurt people. I know the Barge changes us into people who don't. I think the way that happens is that it makes us not alone anymore. It shows us mirrors of ourselves. It shows us love. It hurts us and shows us that we can heal.
[ He's started to cry, tears spilling over, though his expression doesn't change. ]
I was never loved. You, all of you who were, you're so lucky. I thought that a son should love his father, and so I let him use me, and I gave him everything he expected. I killed, and I watched, and - I even tried to kill him sometimes, because he expected it, and he would have thought I was weak if I hadn't. Then, when I became too skilled, he tried to dispose of me, and when that didn't work, he tried to buy me, and I...
You don't know how lucky you are. You don't know how it changes everything when people love you.
[ He wipes tears away. ]
It's not going to be the same without Morgana.
[ spam for sylvanas ]
[ He stops by her cabin, after making the post. Just a check-in, which he does every once in a while, making sure she's all right, that she doesn't need anything. He knocks, because he never comes in without asking - at least, not until Lirath's opened the door for him. ]
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If it was just to make a point, then I would have stayed with my lover.
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[ He so didn't buy that, and it was clear in his tone. ]
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Your endless gratitude, obviously.
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To believe that someone like you could change so fast.
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[ And this next is the complete truth: ]
I don't have anything to prove.
[ And that, honestly, is wonderful. It's liberating. ]
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Atonement.
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You checked on me.
You must really be worried.
[ But it's honestly not taunting. It's just the first instant Zane is anything but bored and aggravated with Jerry as an inmate. ]
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Consider it...curiosity.
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Is there anything else?
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[ He doesn't believe it. Not after the rather...violent encounters they've had. ]
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